(Source: patron-saint-of-the-denial, via -alexander)
I think the most difficult part to get through a Day of Silence for me is that…I can’t talk when I’m by myself. I’m constantly running late and forgetting shit and it helps me to talk to myself a little bit. “Okay, got my wallet, keys, phone, ID, lighter… GOOD TO GO!!” I can’t do that. I have to say it all in my head. And I ALWAYS feel like I get jumbled up and don’t express things well when they’re in my head. Like when I write papers, I have to say everything as I am typing it! I have to figure out if it sounds good before it’s written. So even writing this I’m having to seriously concentrate and read and reread over and over again!
My plan for today was to continue writing the creative/erotic story that I wrote for my writing class, but I don’t think I’ll express myself well enough so I haven’t even tried. All I can do is watch t.v.
I can’t even listen to music! Because when I do it’s too tempting to sing along. I can’t control myself! The few times I have listened to music I forget it’s the Day of Silence and almost start singing. All that came out was a hum, so we’re good.
This has been my best attempt at Day of Silence. In the past I usually start when I wake up, mess up or am forced to talk a few times, and then stop before midnight because we have a Day of Silence activity or something. This year I have gone from midnight last night and will continue until midnight tonight. Even if I’m partying I will stay awkwardly quiet until midnight.
HURRAY FOR WILLPOWER…